A Known Stranger

A known stranger, such contradictory words in a single statement yet it is so true. It really hurts that things had to come to this, as much as i tried to prepare myself for it nothing could have prepared me for this. Settling for less was hard, but I was lucky i still had something...now it just feels like i've lost so much. We pass by each other like strangers meeting in the hall way. We talk like mere acquaintances. Thru it all i realize that I needed you more than you needed me, hate to admit it but its true.

Pursuit Of Happyness

yes i am back...like finally haha...well in my absence a miss deng decided to help me blog which i really really appreciate totally unexpected hahaha...=)...

So recent events in my life has finally managed to kick me hard enough in the arse to blog haha...my gosh a lot has happen in this pass few months.

So happiness, we all yearn for it, crave it, want it, is willing to do anything just to get it??hmmm well it is true for some. Personally i dont believe in hurting others just so that we can achieve our OWN happiness. What is happiness if you have no one to share it with? It would really be pointless for me to say this to ppl who are self centered. I do feel sorry for them too as they have to put others down just so that they can feel good.

Then there are those who are willing to do almost anything just to make the ones that are dear to them feel special and happy. They take joy in seeing their love ones smile and get excited over the little things in life that matters.

As of now i can only think of these two, as i'm totally bogged down with exams and i really think i'm losing my mind...=( hahaha...so i decided to chill a little n take friday night off. (or maybe not =x)...

And on the pursuit towards happiness...i am very much aware that the hard way hurts...that is why it was called the hard way to begin with no? hahaha hurt as it may, whatever that does not kill me, will make me stronger...but do i feel stronger? no not yet...i realize that I have manage to push myself this time to really sit n study for quite long periods and i am actually quite amaze haha...then i realize this may be me reacting to recent events in my life. Trying to push away the sorrows by covering it up with work and alcohol and music. I really feel mentally exhausted and at times like this you really wish you are not alone...well technically i am not cause i have 119 other goons with me suffering from BOB and some of them from INC hahaha...but you get what i'm trying to say and if you dont welllll........too bad haha...

So what are YOU willing to do to achieve happiness?



To me i take joy in seeing others being happy and that is no piece of crap haha...it is nice to see a little bit of love going around when the world is so filled with hatred. A song from nickelback - far away has awesome lyrics the line that i would stand by would be this

"Cause with you, i'll withstand all of hell just to hold you hand"

and i mean why not right? haha


great things come to those who wait....settling for less is always hard and sad but it is better than having nothing at all...and yeah i guess that will be all from me for now...will try my best to blog more....so until then SMILE for there is a tomorrow and when there is a tomorrow there are opportunities so always put your best foot forward and remember... action speaks louder than words...spread the love ya'lll

The Premier of Whiteout

DISCLAIMER: I know i said in previous post that this was suppose to be Hennessy Artistry but that will have to wait a while longer hahaha

So it was the 13th of Oct, some were a bit taboo about the number 13 but to me its just another number. Poor 13 somehow along the way in history got associated with BAD LUCK. I think it all started with the whole Salem Witch Trial thing which i dont know much about...anywhoooooooooo Kristine so kind heatedly invited me to the premier of Whiteout.




I'm just going to roughly summarize the movie in my own words...don't worry I wont give out any spoilers hahaha....Basically the movie is a Suspense/Thriller movie about mankind's greed which eventually cause havoc in Antarctica where the movie is set. Whiteout is a phenomenon whereby the weather gets so bad that winds can reach up to 100 mph and you can not see more than 6 inches in front of you. So the movie is about a group of geologist who were out on their expedition searching for meteorites until 1 day they stumbled upon something very precious. The story slowly unfolds itself with flashbacks and a twist or two. Carrie Stetko(Kate Beckinsale) plays a U.S Marshall who is determined to hunt down the murderer and solve the mystery involved as the team of geologist dies 1 by 1....i personally like movies like this where I cant guess the endings. During the movie you are bound to feel SUSPENSE haha and the element of suspense is not disappointing at all and will most definitely bring you to the edge of your sits. The twist in the movie is relatively good BUT the movie is quite short. I however enjoyed it and would recommend you to watch it despite the length of the movie. It is rated 18 PL...i think...but there really isn't much unless the good Malaysian Board of Censorship CENSORED off all the good parts hahaha...there is a certain extend of Goriness in the movie but if you managed to survive Final Destination 4 then this would be a stroll in the park for you. The movie will be premiering in Cinemas this Thursday i think which is the 15th of Oct so go watch it....The movie's cast includes KATE BECKINSALE (love her) Shawn Doyle and Nicolas Wright.










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Here is the trailer, feast your eyes on this!!

Anger Management

As the title suggest this post is going to get hot hot hot...hahaha i've never had a post like this so here goes...i'll try to be as gentle as possible for the benefit of everyone.

The one thing that ticks me off...that i have really REALLY low tolerance towards is when ppl change because of POWER. I'm really damn effing annoyed with bone heads like this. After taking a long break from IT I finally decided to go bak and Sunday marked the first day of my so called return. I never expected anything knowing things has been getting from bad to worst until a few stepped bak in to try n salvage whatever is left of IT. Then seeing them bak there i thought to myself hey maybe it wouldn't be thaaaatttt bad after all la. I was in for a surprise la...the dungu of a person cannot even greet ppl with a simple HI also. *argue* But Mark she stress la chill la give her some time and space...if thats the case right I want to go around being an asshole and justify myself by saying i'm going through a bad patch la. =.= ... cannot right? i mean wtf like everybody else got no issues in their life la either way it is not an excuse to treat ppl badly. So ok fine i'll be the understanding one and give her the benefit of the doubt la huh.

During practice we were running through a song and it had to be stopped so that the musicians could be TOLD what to play...now that SERIOUSLY ticks me off...We are not Malaysian Philharmonic orchestra or a PERFORMING choir....so why scrutinize the way the musicians play..What happen to spontainity and sparks of inspiration...I felt like I was at work being PUSHED around by a boss whos nose has been arched SOOOO high that he cant even see his own 2 feet. Things were just really PATHETIC...yes i miss the good ole times we had...how we used to have fun being together glorifying HIM n not OURSELVES...I dont like to just sit down and complain and then do nothing about it but now i'm gettin my arse up and TRYING to do something about it and yet all I see is EGO and INSECURITY....FLAWS that OTHERS have to suffer for...now that is just plain ridiculous la...its been at least 2 months i've been bearing with beats that are just saddening... 1 BY 1 THEY FALL BECAUSE OF POWER AND THE TUNE THAT IS PLAYING IS THE SAME OLD TUNE....in the movie spider man Uncle Ben said to Peter...with great POWER comes great RESPONSIBILITY. Only thing i see is the responsibility of keeping me myself and I above the rest regardless of what I do...

In Your Attempts to Make Things Look Nicer, You Do The Direct Opposite and Make A Fool Out Of Yourself.


Now thats that...since I'm on a roll I might as well talk about other things....Its been at least a month since it happen and i'm slowly getting used to things but once in a while it still bugs me here and there...Like when I'm alone and things dont seem to go my way, when the cold I feel is more than just a physical sensation, the feeling of holding onto something so real yet so abstract comes creeping in. I reach out my hand hoping to feel something warm, something familiar but no, all I feel is emptiness. Am I ok? Yes I am but I'm only human and seeing something that I have nurtured grow into what i thought was so beautiful, what I thought was going to keep growing, something that would not fail when everything else does. All my emotions every drop of it pouring into that one thing and one thing only....finally dying so abruptly. Yes only time can heal and yes it has been healing, nevertheless my confidence has dropped, my self esteem trying to find its way back to me. I'm already packing up and bringin my act else where, and so ladies and gents this is a little glimpse into my inner soul. Thank You...





NEXT POST: HENNESSY ARTISTRY!!!!

District 9 and Section 23

ok for this post I really dont want to write much cause i'm sure most are aware of the things that are going on with the whole section 23 drama. Here is a little spoof i came up with cause i really have tooo much free time...=)

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Section 23

I LOVE MALAYSIA!!!!!

ps - i know the story line of district 9 and section 23 are totally different its just that since they both have PLACES as their first names that is why i drew the relation...

ps..ps - no animals were harm in the making of this post....

Man Utd 2 - 1 Arsenal....So What?? =)

well welll...now that is why I LOVE with a capital L football sooo much....not just because Man Utd came up top for this match but it just goes to show that, the game ain't over till the fat lady sings....(its a football expression FOR REAL)

So once again just like how i did on the Man Utd - Liverpool post...i'm going to be very objective about a few things if its right its right if its wrong then its wrong la....

Reading the title Man Utd fans must be thinking....IDIOT....SO WHAT??? hahaha well yeah so what...to me this game was just another game in the whole season...YES it was a good game... YES they beat the Guooonerss YES Man Utd did walk away with 3 points and i guess ultimately that is the whole idea...it really doesn't matter THATTTTTT much who Man Utd beats ... its I believe a lot more to "good they have won yet another game to help them with the season" but what makes this win so special?? .... well i guess its because of the hype about Man Utd losing to a newly promoted side and Arsenal starting off the season with such a bang so putting 1 to 1 Arsenal were expected to HANTAM!!! Man Utd at home .... this defeat just shows that...The season is still so FRESH la dont talk cock sing song all about winning the title already just cause they went on a trashing spree for their FIRST 3 GAMES....=.=....

So about the game...all in all i would say it was a good game honestly not just because Man Utd won...but it was not 1 sided and chances were there for both sides....If you look at big games its always about who would break first MENTALLY....like the goal from Arshravin (or however you spell his name) Vidic should have closed him down and not allow him to shoot....as for Ben Foster...i guess he just wasn't expecting a shoot like that BUT take nothing away from the small russian dood it was a great goal...Then came the PENALTY which i believe changed the whole course of the game...once again things like this are not RARE it is quite common especially in big games....did rooney dive to get the penalty...NO...Almunia clearly TA PAU the fella which was kinda unessecary cause if rooney would have gotten the ball it would be a lot harder to put it pass Almunia. After the penalty, came the Freekick that GIGGSY took....a silly mistake by diaby and BAM!!! OWNNNN GOALLLL!!!!!! but if you watch the replay for that, Rooney was right behind Diaby and if Diaby let it go it would have fallen right into Rooney's feet and also BAMM!!!! but this time GOALLLL!!!!!

So that is about it...the highlights of the match...apart from the fact that Ben Foster managed a BRILLIANT reaction save and that Arsenal had 6 Yellow Cards.... Man Utd's lost to Burnley didn't really come as a BIG surprise for me...Shit happens in in life and in FOOTBALL so you better Buckle Up cause I can see an interesting season dawning upon us with more matches like this to come and perhaps more DRAMA!!! +)

Of Raining Mornings and Sunny Afternoons

Well its been a very long while since i blogged and its mainly because i'm on summer break and I really have no motivation to go about being my active self. BUTTTTT i'm really not complaining, i'm enjoying the laid back life i have right now...KINDA stress free, really NOTHING much to worry about and the occasionnal hanging out with frens is all very much NICE!!!!

So of rainy mornings and sunny afternoons huh...well that title has been stucked in my head for quite some time and it really has nothing to do with anything i'm goin to write about hahaha in fact i'm not to sure what i'm goin to write about. There has been however a few days that were literally raining in the morning and bright and sunny in the afternoon. To be honest i actually like that kind of weather hahaha the nice cold weather outside in the morning just makes curling up in bed oooooo so much nicer and the sunny afternoons welll are just sunny afternoons hahaha....

So ppl have been asking me how on good old planet earth do i survive 4 months of holiday practically doing NOTHING....hahaha...well there really only is 1 rule....TAKE EACH DAY AS IT COMES....i literally dont worry about what is going to happen tomorrow and just do what i feel like doing. =) NOT PLANNING for what i'm going to do tomorrow is really not me...when the semester begins again...i'll be constantly looking at the calendar planning and planning prioritising events and stuffs.....and things can really get out of hand sometimes ask any chemical engineer and they'll say pretty much the same thing...so when summer dawns upons us or ME specifically, I guess i just dont wanna work on high gear and thats why i opt for a very much more laidback lifestyle hahaha...

Ppl say i should get a part time job instead of just bumming around...well if I find a part time job worth doing ( NOT FOR THE MONEY ) then i would...besides sitting alone at home for most of the day gives me some time to myself too... Sitting here in my computer room watching as ppl go on with their lives thru FB and MSN and their BLOGS is quite interesting. Sometimes being awake at this hour alone...thoughts would creep into my mind...NO not negative thoughts...just thoughts of who I was and how did i get here and where am i now and where am I headed to....I was actually watching Yasmin Ahmad's commercials before blogging and she(he) really knows what she want her audience to FEEL, SENSE, THINK....of course I speak for those who are open minded and not those who look at her commercials thinking that it must have a hidden racist agenda....Here is the link to 1 of my favourite and its not because of interacial marriage but because of what the indian lady said....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2XLZsiCBsA.

apparently Yasmin Ahmad took the idea from the movie Good Will Hunting...but whatever la....what really struck me was the things said in the ad....and I really have to agree that being with our partners knowing their 'imperfections' is what makes them beautifully perfect and when they are gone it is the little things that you remember....like the way she laughs or smiles...or looks at you when you go on non stop ranting about that stupid driver....it is the little things that really matter after all...but this is said a lot more than done...when i watch this type of ads or listen to songs that i can really relate too...i get sudden burst of inspirations and thoughts...anyways while you are at that link look at the related videos and there are a few videos from thailand (not by yasmin ahmad) that are worth watching also...for those with a weaker heart i suggest you prepare tissues cause tears...i can gurantee you will be there hahaha....

well i guess thats all i have to say for now...so spend some time with yourself to get to know yourself better...if you dont know yourself how are you going to share YOU with the world...=)....